I was looking for a blog post here in my blog.. something about painting and how I can’t paint again after giving birth.. it’s a touching post.. or at least for me.. but I can’t find it!
As I was browsing my blog..nostalgia hit me.. you know, like looking in a photo album.. same feelings, same sentiments.. then I came across a post about one of my kids..
and my heart melts. no, more like, it scattered into pieces.. I cry.. reading that blog post made me realized how much time was lost between me and that boy of mine.. it was a very sad realization.. my heart ached for that time.. for the lost time with him..
I know there is no use crying over it.. but I cannot help it.. there’s a lump in my throat, part of me wants to scream and be angry at myself.. what have I done? too much on my hands back then..
It was a sad chapter in my life..even if I am now trying to make it up to him, I know times like this would always come.. and it would always be the same.. the lump in my throat.. that, wanting to scream..
🙁
Dianna Thomas says
March 3, 2013 at 2:01 pmMy heart is hurting for you, I am so sorry. I would love to blog as you do– I just do have much time to the day– My time is now–and here I am reading your blog. You can not bring back what you lost, but you can move forward, and adjust your time,so that you have more time for your family, and for you, and leave the blog on your time, when everyone sleeps.I know thats hard to do,because your blog is your baby too.It will get better
Mommy Pehpot says
March 11, 2013 at 10:06 amit is now Dianna 🙂 thank you so much for the kinds words 🙂
Camille Aguila says
March 3, 2013 at 3:10 pmYou are loved mommy Pehpot. It’s sad but I believe your boy loves you more than what you can think of. Just make it up to him. You can have thousands more memories to keep. 🙂
Mommy Pehpot says
March 11, 2013 at 10:06 amI know that now 🙂 learned my lessons the hard way 🙂
Mom of 2 says
March 3, 2013 at 8:24 pmMy kids are now grown. It happened in the blink of an eye. This is why I always say to my oldest and any of her friends with kids, get off of Facebook, shut off that computer, and enjoy being mom. They grow way.too.quickly.
Mommy Pehpot says
March 11, 2013 at 10:05 amindeed!