This will be my last emotional post about Ondoy. I don’t want you to experience flash floods like we did (Ondoy related articles flood..). I just need to let this out and hopeful after this, I am done.
And though I am already making fun of what happened to us, I cannot deny the fact that I am still traumatized by it. There are times when paranoia hit me. OCD is to blame. There are so many what ifs in my mind and sometimes I cannot bear to think of it. People suffering from OCD are like that, images would suddenly pops in their head and they can’t do anything to stop it.. So instead of suppressing it, I am letting it out.
What if #1
What if we were out that day. We were to go to the drugstore to buy some meds for the kids. Good thing that heavy rains stopped us. If we went ahead as planned, we would be trapped in Ever Gotesco for three days. I cannot imagine three days without the kids. More so, I cannot imagine my kids without me and without food fro three days. It is plain unthinkable but I could not stop my mind from thinking the scenario.
What if #2
What if hubby is not at home. I am not afraid for our safety but for the hubby. I knew that he would try everything to reach us. I would have died worrying about his safety and whereabouts.
What if #3
What if the water rise up to the second floor? What if we had to be on the roof and wait to be rescued. That would be the hardest thing. Thinking about it makes me feel nauseated and yet the image of us on the roof keeps popping out in my head.
whew! what a post.. oh well at least I am done unloading..
and please don’t tell the kids, mommy is still afraid.
Chris says
October 5, 2009 at 1:24 pmGod knows what you cant bear… I pray may you find comfort in this..
Dinah says
October 5, 2009 at 2:11 pmhi Pehpot, its good to unload and let out some of the stress. those are actually the what-ifs scenario in my mind so I am thankful that we lost only material things and we are all safe now. thank God this is behind us now.
*MrsMartinez* says
October 6, 2009 at 3:55 ambuti nalang you are ok…
bambie says
October 6, 2009 at 6:34 amGod is so good that he didn't allow ANY of the things you feared to happen. God bless!
onlinemommy says
October 6, 2009 at 8:20 amI understand your fear mommy, as a mother, we are really after the safety of our kids.May the Lord comforts you and help you overcome your loads.
ebele says
October 6, 2009 at 9:47 ampehpot,Better out than in, I say. And it's good that you felt comfortable sharing it with everyone.take care…
nuts says
October 6, 2009 at 4:53 pmlet it out mommy pehpot… i can't help but sigh, kahit ako nga daming what if's… and now, umuulan na naman..:( palakasan na lang ng loob. let's all pray na malagpasan na lang lahat.
Mom of Four says
October 6, 2009 at 6:48 pmI could understand what you feel, it might happen to me if I was in your shoe. I am just glad that you are all safe. and glad it happened on a weekend where most dads were home to help with their families. What if….Don't worry, being afraid is normal, take care..
noemi says
October 11, 2009 at 10:20 amWhat if my husband went with me to Singapore, eh walang kasama anak ko . We had two maids thought and they are adult kids pero it is still a scary thought for them. I am glad you are all safe.We are almost back to normal. We still don't have our cars but a brother in law lent us a car
redamethyst says
March 17, 2010 at 6:20 amthe good thing is you are all safe now.
redamethyst says
March 17, 2010 at 6:20 amano ba! haha buti last post na ito at baka tumulo pa ang luha ko nyan
Jenny So says
October 27, 2011 at 7:22 amthank God we are all safe from the ravage of Ondoy.