I don’t know if I can still blog that much. I can post three times a day still but blog hop.. I don’t think so. I don’t have the energy to read my friend’s blog and think and comment. My first born needs me so much and it is very draining. He is having a lot of emotional turbulence right now. He lacks the motivation to move, to think and do what he needs to. I cannot abandon him during this time. He is my pillar of strength and seeing him slowly crashing right before my eyes kills me. I hate the fact that I can’t do anything. I tried letting him do whatever he thinks can give back his motivation but no use. I also tried reprimanding him, and still no use. I cannot think now, all I can do and be with him. Along the way, I thought of rebelling to what he is becoming but I can’t. I am made up with much more than that and I know, it won’t solve our problems. He lacks the will to do anything. He lacks the motivation, he lacks it all. What can I do for him when in fact he was my source?
I already suggested something to him that can take this all away, but are we ready for it? Can we face it? Oh darn!
What’s motivating you right now?
note: first born is hubby. just so you know…
ghieGANDA says
August 11, 2009 at 12:38 pmoh what's happening to him mommy peh? pray tau. =) how r u? not so good i guess based on this post. pero try hard to feel good for the baby. i missed visiting u mommy peh. ingat lagi. muaaaahh!
Kero says
August 11, 2009 at 12:51 pmmy heart is with you. hang on….i think every marriage goes through this.
onlinemommy says
August 11, 2009 at 2:19 pmThis is sad mommy 🙁 but your decision is right. Maybe your mere presence will motivate him again. And don't forget to pray for him, it really works dearie!And don't stress out yourself, these is another breath inside you, remember?Hoping you all the best.
Jona says
August 11, 2009 at 2:31 pmits sad for a mother to see her child at this state…or at times you might find yourself frustrated for being at your best but still not being able to help (change) him. i wonder what have caused him to be like this? you can just really be there for him. or maybe ask him if there's something you can do for him. i believe your son can snap out of it in time. smile! 😀
Jona says
August 11, 2009 at 2:33 pmsorry i'm not reading…it's your hubby pala not your son.
Mom says
August 11, 2009 at 5:05 pmIt is very difficult to see the one you love and depend on struggling in this way. The best you can do is just be there for him. Love him. Reassure him that you will always love him no matter what comes your way. I went through a situation at the beginning of the year where my husband was very sick. It was pretty scary to see him in such a state of helplessness and to watch how afraid he was. It took everything in me to be strong enough to carry him through because it is usually the other way around – him carrying me through. You can do it. You are stronger than you know.
onlinemommy says
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Stacie says
August 11, 2009 at 8:41 pmYou have to do what you have to do. Family comes first. Don't worry about not making comments. If you need an ear or someone to talk to know I am here to listen! Have a great week.
Mike Mamaril says
August 14, 2009 at 6:04 pmEither burned out na sya or hindi lang talaga nya trip. Kung pipilitin mo gawin ang isang bagay na hindi mo naman talaga gusto half baked lang ang result palagi. Minsan nga lang walang pagpipilian.It's like being stuck between a rock and a hard place.
redamethyst says
March 16, 2010 at 9:00 amoh, what's this probleM?
redamethyst says
March 16, 2010 at 9:00 amsiguro tapos na ang problema na ito. ganun talaga, problems will come our way
Jenny So says
October 25, 2011 at 9:09 amAkala ko si Kayil… Stress si hubby?